As I’ve aged I’ve noticed that I tend to get fixated on particularly significant parts of my life.  (My husband is great at pointing things out that I never noticed about myself.) In the past I’ve intensely focused on relationships, jobs, projects, hobbies, etc.  I once stayed up for over 12 hours working on an art project and forgot to eat or use the bathroom. I clearly remember the pain in my eyes, but I just couldn’t stop.

I’ve been asking myself lately if my tendency toward fixation is beneficial or detrimental.  My current fixation is building a small business and its corresponding website.  If you haven’t tried either, I recommend both.  It’s always cool to see the guts that make things tick.  I titled my blog site Natural Connections because no matter what I am prioritizing (aka fixating on), I find ways to help my current interest enrich all other areas of my life and my view of the world.

I’m leaning toward the idea that fixation isn’t necessarily a bad thing.  Sometimes it’s the drive that I need to be the wonderfully motivated person that I am.  Sometimes it’s the intense fascination about something that makes me dig deeper and stare longer to see the details I would have otherwise missed. For example, my bike rides take forever because I have to stop frequently to look at birds through my binoculars and try to capture some cool shots on my camera.  Even taking breaks to listen to the wind blow is incredibly intoxicating and refreshing.

I have to be careful to find a balance.  I love nature, caring for our earth, enriching my fellow citizens lives, reading, laughing, creating, working, spending time with children, and the list goes on!  If I find that other areas of my life are suffering, I must step back and look at my big picture.

Sometimes it feels like time freezes as I dedicate myself to reaching a goal, but I must always remember to look up often on my journey so I don’t miss the beauty that surrounds me!